74 days...

There are 74 days until the big wedding day :)  I still can't believe it will be OUR wedding.  Ryan and I have attended 30 weddings (give or take) over the last several years and they are always so fun to go to and see friends/family and celebrate the bride & groom getting married, but it's just hard for me to realize it's finally OUR turn to have a wedding :)

I have been thinking A LOT lately.  I think my brain and heart are at full speed.  I am NOTHING like I expected myself to be as a "planing bride" (well maybe a few things, but nothing what I imaged myself to be) Does that make sense?  I get a count down email every day and today it said "74 days until the wedding" I am EXCITED, NERVOUS, ANXIOUS, EXCITED, NERVOUS, & HAPPY for the wedding day, but I just can't focus on that ONE DAY for some reason.  Yes I have cried.  Yes I have worried.  Yes I have debated on colors, decorations, flowers, invitations, etc.  Yes I have woken up in the middle of the night worrying about "the day".  But I don't find myself dwelling on that ONE DAY details all too often, because I am focused on the DAYS-AFTER-THE-BIG-DAY :)  I know the wedding day will be fabulous bc we have the BEST family & friends on this planet.  That is why my head & heart are in full swing of focusing on Ryan and I's life after the big day. :)  We want to enjoy our life TOGETHER.  Live life to the fullest TOGETHER.  Spend as much time with our family & friends as possible TOGETHER.  Explore TOGETHER.  Take adventures TOGETHER.  Dream big TOGETHER.  Love TOGETHER. Smile TOGETHER. Laugh TOGETHER. Be silly TOGETHER.  That is what a "wedding day" symbolizes to me - joining two people & families TOGETHER and enjoying life after the big day.   I am not sure this post really flows or makes sense to others, but I just wanted to write down how I have been feeling lately.  Ryan and I are very blessed and do NOT take for granted our very supportive family & friends and really appreciate ALL the hard work others are doing for us for that big day & beyond!!! :)  I just don't want the true meaning of marriage to get overshadowed by flowers, colors, $$$$, or centerpieces. :) 

See I can't even talk wedding for a whole post......

Better late than never right?!?! :)  I FaceTimed with my mom, brother, SIL & Brennen on my birthday so they could sing happy birthday to me and watch me blow out the candles on the YUMMY cake Ryan made me :)  Ha LOVE MY FAMILY!

My parents have been working their butts off remodeling their house :)  LOOKS AWESOME!!!! I went home a few weekends ago & it looks so good.  Should be finished very soon :)  Little Brennen has been an OUTSTANDING helper :) Honestly he has, WAY more than I have :)  He is RIGHT next to my dad the whole time helping him! ha It's too cute. 

Grandpa's little helper :)  He has his tools ready!

Carrying his very own tool box, with his new tool set he got for Christmas from AJ & UF :)

I know not many people read this blog, but it's a great way for me to remember life right now!  I will laugh at myself in a few months :)

Have a great day & week!

Love,
Emily